When I was very young I was in the normal size range. I was healthy. I LOVED to eat. My grandma used to tell me I was such a good eater. The thing is, I didn't want to be the "good eater." My cousins that were my age were not good eaters. I wanted to be like them.
|Starting out early as a runner.|
Then I hit the awkward stage. I got fat starting around second grade. That was when I went on my first diet. I don't remember what I ate. I'm sure my mom made sure I was healthy. But I do remember losing weight and feeling so good I ran and slid on my classroom floor because I was so happy that I was losing weight. I remember being in the third grade and on weigh-in day I was 73 pounds, which sucked because the other fat girl on the bus with me was in fourth grade and weighed 72 pounds.
|Christmas in 3rd grade.|
Even after I "grew into my weight." I was still bigger than my friends, who boys always liked. My freshman year of high school I weighed 147 pounds. I'm 5'8" and I thought that was HUGE.
|14 years old and so freaking cool.|
|Broken neck -- 15-years-old.|
I liked it so much that I stopped eating. The next year (after I broke my neck) I played soccer so I got a ton of exercise. There were days where I would eat a package of gummy raspberries (because they were fat free) and maybe a can of soup if it had less than 2 grams of fat. It was all about fat grams. The goal was to never eat more than 2 per day. I lost weight. I started to get a lot of attention and compliments and I ate it up. I wanted more. So I lost more weight. I would take my dad's Phen Phen pills so I wouldn't be hungry and would lose more weight. At my low weight I was 119 pounds. People would ask me to stop losing weight because I was too thin. I loved that. I didn't see myself as too thin. They were "compliments" to me.
|17 years old, 119 pounds|
After he graduated he left for two years to serve a mission for our church. And guess what. Other boys liked me. I loved the attention. LOVED it. The thing is, I know they were originally "attracted" to me because of how I looked. And the problem with that is that I did it the wrong way -- by pretty much starving myself.
I was in the musical Seven Brides for Seven Brothers my senior year. I thought I had a big abdomen so I duck taped my waist like a girdle to shrink it.
|Superman cape made for my 2-year-old brother.|
When I was 21 I served a mission for my church. I ate no candy the entire time. I was so worried about getting fat and I asked people all the time if I looked bigger. One day someone finally said "maybe" and I freaked out. I started starving myself again during the day and would binge and purge at night. I took diet pills too. This time I went from about 135-140 to 126. People started to notice and compliment me. I was looking great! Then I had a good friend recognize the pattern and she set up a surprise meeting for me with our mission president (the man in charge of the 200+ 20-year-old missionaries). He was an OBGYN and he and his wife talked to me about my "anorexic and bulimic tendencies." She told me they knew I would do it again, which totally gave me permission (in my mind).
A couple of days later I got a phone call from my mission president that basically said that if I did it again I was being sent home. I didn't do it again until I was around 26.
This cycle of horrible eating habits and borderline disorders continued until after I was married. I tried every diet I could -- Atkins, Weight Watchers, etc. I even had lipo (which I still totally love, don't get me wrong). The only thing that ended the cycle was when I learned how to do it the right way. It's all about education! Now I know that eating healthy (with a balance of carbs, fat, and protein) and lifting weights (as well as doing cardio) will get me into those pants that I want to be in and my body won't be starving.
At my fittest I weighed 132, was 19% body fat, and fit into a size 3 (although I was comfortably a 6). I was healthy and eating often. Compare that to when I was 17, starving myself, 119, and in the same size.
When I feel it's necessary I will probably post about my suggestions on how to deal with teenagers like I was but if you are in the situation with your daughter, please email me. I want to help. I want to educate her. She needs to know that she can be healthy and lean without starving herself. But mainly I want her to not think about food ALL THE TIME like I did. And maybe that will take a counselor, which I am not.
So today is week 3 of my nutrition and exercise plan. I'm doing pretty well with the exercise part. I'm eating healthily but not exactly what the nutrition plan says. It was so much easier when I didn't have kids. ;)
Pre Workout (6:00 AM)
200 cal bar or shake/banana and PB/etc.
MEAL 1 (08:00 AM)
0.5 cup Cereal-Oatmeal-Measured Dry
0.25 cup Milk-Nonfat/Skim
MEAL 2 (10:00 AM)
0.5 cup Cheese-Cottage-Lowfat 1%
10 Kashi TLC Crackers
MEAL 3 (12:30 PM)
Meal Replacement Shake/Bar
MEAL 4 (03:00 PM)
1 oz beef jerky
10 Kashi TLC Crackers166 cal
MEAL 5 (06:00 PM)
1/3 c brown rice
3 oz-wt Chicken Breast Skinless-Roasted
1 cup Beans-Green,Snap-Cooked
MEAL 7 (09:00 PM)
0.5 cup Cheese-Cottage-Lowfat 1%
0.5 cup Cucumber-Slices
0.5 Tomato-Medium Whole
|Eliptical Machine||Intervals 3 min Jog 2 min Sprint||30 & 30 Minutes||6 & 5 days per week|
|Day||Body Part||Exercise||Sets||Reps||Weight||Rest||Speed||Notes||Exercise Info|
|1||Chest||Incline Dumbbell Chest Press||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets back exercise||Details|
|1||Back||Cable Lat Pull Down||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets chest exercise||Details|
|1||Chest||Dumbbell Chest Press||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets back exercise||Details|
|1||Back||Seated Cable Row||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets chest exercise||Details|
|2||Legs||Leg Extension||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 set exercise||Details|
|2||Legs||Seated Calf Raise Machine||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets exercise||Details|
|2||Legs||Leg Press Plate Loaded||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|
|2||Legs||Seated Leg Curl Machine||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|
|3||Shoulders||Rear Shoulder Fly Machine||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets exercise||Details|
|3||Core/Abs||Ball Crunches||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets exercise||Details|
|3||Shoulders||Shoulder Lateral Raise Machine||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|
|3||Core/Abs||Forearm Bridge||10||60sec||Superset No Rest||Hold Constant||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|
|4||Biceps||Standing Hammer Dumbbell Curl||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets exercise||Details|
|4||Triceps||Cable Triceps Press Down||3||15||Superset No Rest||2/4/2||Superset with other 3 sets exercise||Details|
|4||Biceps||Incline Bench Dumbbell Curls||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|
|4||Triceps||Barbell Skull Crusher||10||10||Superset No Rest||3/5/2||Superset with other 10 sets exercise||Details|